I love my new job, I love working, but there is a tearing at my heart because I know that God has something different for me. It’s actually tempting to keep working and rely upon my abilities to provide for myself instead of allowing God to provide. I know it’s always a bit of both, but I know my heart is to be full time in the house of prayer, and that God will provide a way for that sooner or later.
It’s definitely a full load right now, working 9-5, and in the prayer room at a minimum 7:30-12 at night. I choose to do it, because just as working is a necessity for my physical state, and the prayer room is a necessity for my spiritual state. God is doing so much in me right now, I find that if I miss even a few days in a row, I lose my focus.
Am I an over-achiever? I never really have thought of myself as one, even though I often excel beyond others. I always chalked it up to natural gifting. But for once in my life, I can now say that I am driven. I am pushing my own limits until it hurts, finding my weakness, my need for God.
And it’s all worth it.
My new address is:
4505 E. 114th St.
Kansas City, MO 64137
Send me your love!

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